Crazy Time

For as long as I can remember, I've avoided anything that takes me out of my comfort zone. When I was little, that meant PE and Band. When I was in high school, that was things like speaking in public and new friends, because believe it or not, I didn't talk much. That seems weird now, but once in middle school, after just moving to Alma, a girl thought I was a special education student because I NEVER talked. My friends and family have always known the "real" me that's WAY more talkative and willing to embarrass herself in front of them a little for the sake of a good laugh, but when I moved to college those comfortable lines were really challenged. So whats that have to do with now?
I bought Crazy Love as soon as it would stay on a shelf long enough, then got too busy to read it. So its been sitting on my desk for well over a year collecting dust, until my sweet friend Katiebug & I decided we would read it together and have "crazy time" to talk about it every night. So last night when I got back to my room and found out she'd already started reading, I had to jump into my bed and start right away. She warned me that it was gonna convict me immediately, but I wasn't ready for 17 daggers to the heart. Its always annoyed me so much when someone would constantly harp on only the loving attributes of Jesus, but that's because, as I discovered last night, its so hard for me to love. Not to love my friends or my family. If you know me, you've heard me talk about my bffffff's and my nieces and nephews, and I couldn't love them more, but its so hard for me to love the people who are hard to love. But Jesus didn't discriminate. He says to even love our enemies. "But I say to you who listen: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you." (Luke 6:27) So clearly I'm failing miserably, but thats what brings me back to grace! Time to get crazy and get out of my comfort zone to love others like Jesus does, even my enemies! Love Love Love.